Today I declare WAR!

Today I declare war on the world for not making everything perfect for me.
Today I declare war on my job for not making everything easy on me.
Today I declare war on my girlfriend, she is now my ex-girlfriend.
Today I declare war on my kids for being kids and loving unconditionally.
Today I declare war on my house for constantly needing repair.
Today I declare war on my bank for not lending me any money.
Today I declare war on my family for never being there for me.
Today I declare war on my friends for always making me look at the bright side of things.

Today I declare war on myself for setting my expectations too high.
Today I declare war on myself for being 34 and still optimistic.
Today I declare war on myself for not giving my children more attention
Today I declare war on myself for being so belligerent.
Today I declare war on myself for expecting too much out of life.
Today I declare war on myself for being so fucking co-dependent.
Today I declare war on myself for feeling guilty about hard decisions.
Today I declare war on myself for stressing over the small things in life.
Today I declare war on myself for missing the wonderment of just being alive.


Sorry guys, I had to vent. Shit is falling apart around here and I'm in a mad dash to set things right again. It's like trying to crawl out of a hole, you get so far and then WHAMO you slide down again. I'm nothing if not persistent though. I'll get there and my experiences will strengthen my resolve. The bad things that have happened to me over the course of the last 4 years will serve to remind me why I should never trust ANYONE except my sons and my friends.

Z